Wednesday, October 30, 2013


It has been awhile again since I wrote. Life happened. I had 3 weeks to pack up our 3 bedroom apartment. 3 weeks while I was a single mother. 3 weeks to say goodbye. Anything happening online was an afterthought. I might be back now, but I don't know for how long. Part of me feels so much joy, and then part of me is too tired. Tired of waiting, of tending to thousands of daily needs voiced from little mouths that are always wanting. I have a post I want to write soon, but today might not be the day. Or maybe....maybe it is. Maybe that's what is missing. The truth. The realness. Bare and laid out, for all to see. Yes, I think it's time.

 This is about Love. Love is HUGE! Way bigger than we can imagine! I grew up hearing and believing that God is male, and that thinking anything different was blasphemous and we would offend Him. But you know what? Love is bigger than gender. Love does not just happen between a man and a woman. Who are we to limit it so? Women can love each other. Men can love each other. If one of my sons brings home a boyfriend in the future, I will be ok with that. If my daughter brings home a girlfriend, well I'll be ok with that too. It is not my place to put love in a box. Love is huge. I also grew up thinking that only Christians could really love each other, and anyone who didn't call themselves a christian didn't know how to truly love. Wow. So narrow! Such a small box! No, you cannot put love in a box. You can try, but the box will only contain you. Not love. I believe that love touches all. It touches in different amounts. Mothers seems to have loads of it for their young. And you know what? You know that whole gender thing about God? Well here's the answer. God is Love.

There is so much more I want to write about, but this it it for the time being. Now, if you are so inclined to convince me that I'm wrong, or that I'm lost and need some serious help, don't. Do Not. Don't comment, send me a chat, text, or email, or even phone call about this, unless you agree with me or are at least open. I am a guided free spirit, but I'm not guided by you. This doesn't mean I'm a close-minded asshole. I just know that there are people that will be upset and will want to 'help' me. And I know that I'm more than fine. I'm flying. Free. At last.


treemusicmama said...

You are so full of love!! It's overflowing and I love that about you :-) You are such a blessing to me and SO MANY. And those needy little mouths think you are the world. Love you sister!

Grace said...

Aww thanks! Love you too!

Mirenda Boska said...

Love is huge! and thank you for spelling it out so clearly. Really, " All we need is Love", right?

Gayl said...

I’m glad you were able to write this post. I’m sure it felt good to get it out. It can be hard to be truthful, to bare our souls and be vulnerable. We all need to be willing to be truthful and honest even if people don’t understand and will disagree. This is the way we can come together and work through differences. We all need to be open to changing views on things, but not because someone tells us, not because it’s how we imagine things, not because it’s the popular or unpopular view but because of the truth we find in God’s Word. Every thought we have needs to be brought captive to the Word of God. I think one of the problems we Christians have is that we are so often afraid of conflict, afraid to confront each other, afraid to confront God. We are told to just believe and not question. But this is wrong. God is so much bigger than we can imagine. And He already knows our thoughts anyway.
You are right, GOD IS LOVE, but He is so much more! ( And I use the word “He” not because God is male but because He is represented to us as Father in the Bible.)
God is infinite and we are finite, so there is no way we can exhaust or completely understand Him. But we know that we are LOVED by God and we need to seek to know Him as fully as we can by the power of His Holy Spirit! And we need to pray that He will enable us to love as He loves. And I know you are full of love!
And I love you very much with a Mother’s love, which, as you know being a mother, is very fierce. Nothing will ever take that away. I will be here for you as long as God keeps me on this earth!

Grace said...

I love you too mom. and appreciate your post. I don't base everything on the bible, I'm not sure it's 100% true. I do believe that I'm going down the path I need to go, and that this is right for me. No matter what though, I follow Jesus and I know he will never let me go. Thank you for loving me even though we don't agree on some things.